I will fear no evil, for Thou are with me

Good Days and Bad days. Who ever coined that term was not kidding. This week has been nothing but good days and bad days. For whatever reason, I seem to be dealing with stress less and less well. In fact, it's downright horrid. This week, my attitude has SUCKED. I feel like I'm groaning under the weight of everything. I feel the stress physically. It could all be stress related but I'm pursuing routes to try and figure out why I do not feel well. In the past months I've dealt with various health issues. It's gotten to the point to where the physical pain is constant. I've begun acupuncture. I can feel a slight difference, but that ill feeling is still there. I exercise, I eat relatively healthy...on the flip side, I work long hours and go to school which has the stress of homework, tests, quizzes etc. On paper, I"m the picture of health - but something is off. I can feel it. So next week, I'm going to an ENT to rule out or diagnose middle ear infection. I've got all the symptoms: temporary hearing loss, CONSTANT ringing in my ears, vertigo, ill feelings... There's also Meneire's disease (I botched the spelling) which also has the tinnitus (ringing in ears) but can also be caused by Lyme Disease, which I've had... Also looking into the possibilty that the Lyme is back... The unfortunate thing about that is that there are few doctors who actually give credence to Lyme causing chronic fatigue. I know I sound like a hypochondriac, but I just want the pain to go away...without meds. I don't like taking meds. It is only temporary and it's not treating the cause...only the symptoms. I want my back to stop hurting and spasming. I feel spriritually attacked, I feel physically attacked. I was on such a high, now I'm on a major low. I don't like feeling so emotionally like a roller coaster. I went to WGTS 91.9 Prayer Works website and it was a good encouragement for me, in that there are many others struggling too. It struck home how AWESOME out God is that He is OMNIPOTENT, OMNIPRESENT and OMNISCIENT. That he doesn't stick our prayers in a folder labeled "I'll get to those later"...He hears us when we call. Maybe we're too busy talking and not doing enough listening. So that's the end of my rant. I'm going to be quiet now and let God speak to me.

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on your side. 

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain; 
 leave to your God to order and provide; 
 in every change God faithful will remain. 
 Be still, my soul: your best, your heavenly friend 
 through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.